My brother finally went off the deep end and my parents had to take him to the hospital. And I lost one of my best friends all in one night...They say life's not fair, but can you blame me for lashing out at the world anyways? People tell me to hange in there. but it gets old after awhile. i want some real advice! I dont care how cliche it sounds, or how selfish. I HATE my life. I know it could be worse. but im only human. im not this perfect being that can just adjust to every hit life throws at me. i break down. and sometimes its hard to put me back together. i dont mean to be stubborn, selfish, immature, or hypocritical. Its who I am. and its in all of us. I'm told to fix myself and change. but how is that possible when i dont even know where to start? Im only just 17. i dont know the whole world, and ill admit im not especially inclined in getting to know it. I dont know everything, but its not like im completely ignorant either. And if your wondering why I'm writing this or thinking "like i care", its not for you. Its for me. I feel better when I can get things written down from my head when my thoughts are too much for me to handle. Like a stress relief. Like listening to music or engulfing yourself into some project. Thats how I feel. But then, does it really matter?